Its just been long time that i have never post . I this few weeks veri sad and shag cuz i have broken up with him . Although i still love him alot , is he want to break . And i just have to respect his decision . But i have been crying over him cuz of him saying me those veri hurting and cruel words .But i still love him so much and i dun even scold him back . Everyday i just hope to see him and that's more than enough for me to be happy already . But when i see him playing with other girls , chatting happily wif them , i will jealous . i dun knw why . i have deep feelings for him . in my head is always him him him . Our memories , our time together , our romance , our love towards each other . He just meant so much to me . But he dun even knw . Cuz i can't talk to him . Even i text him , he will scold me . So i rather just keep everything in my heart or share wif my meii , cetrin to let my heart feel better rather then really everything also keep inside the bottom of my heart . I just wan him to knw that i really love him alot . And he said that my attitude sucks , so i was veri veri determined to change . Now my two best meis , Cetrin and Jamie tell me that i changing quite alot lerhh , but i dun knw if its real , or thay are just making me happy . But i believe them , So everyday i tell myself i cannot say vulgar . Cuz he said why i change till so bad when last time i was so gentle . I wan to become the old me . I dun wan the new me . The new me is like real bad . I really miss and love him so much . And i can't do anything . This breaks my heart . ): , I Dun knw wad to do . Dardar ~ , I love youh so much . but i dun knw whether to find another romance anot . Cuz i like had a crush on another boy in my school . But i dun think that is real feelings . For my dar , Its real feelings . He is the boy that i ever met that i had loved so much that i can't afford to lose him like this . ): , I am Sad . IMISSYOUH , ILOVEYOUH